Imagined
faces of pleasure
float past
attached to every
pair
of high heels
balancing
prejudice
and likewise
drip
from quieter
(oh, so quiet)
white
(red,
black,
blue)
trainers
with their
slow-crumbling
soles
adorned
with scars
like she
is.
(They carry
scuffed
souls,
too.)
Eyes clenched
shut
against
possibility
and fists squeezed
around
seventy-two
cents
on the dollar;
her lips
part,
wet
in places,
and,
in others,
dry from
the sharp
inhalation
of breath
against
sucked in
stomach
and pushed
together
breasts
(or,
at least
disallowed
from slipping
toward her
armpits
while she
lies
on
her back).
Her thighs
are
whispering
to one another–
separation anxiety.
(They are
afraid to make
new friends.)
Moans
sneak out,
but groans
are forced;
romantic aspirations
meet
resplendent
respiration aspirations.
Dresses wrinkle,
shoved up
as they are
in the
small
of her back–
later
she will be
shamed
by her father–
“How will you
ever
get a man
like that?”
‘Moist’
is a word
to be feared
for what
it
connotes.
Her vagina
is only
meaningful
since
it sheaths
a penis,
but
a penis
is the whole
without
complement.
Formerly
fresh
panties
pulled
to the side–
(at which point
do they
lose
their
pristine
crispness?)
Back
and elbows
and stomach
and hands
and knees–
anything
you like.
All is strawberry
soft lipgloss
and watermelon
wet
and
sherbet shame
and cherry clenched
around
berry bedsheets
and apple
apologetic
murmurings.
His sex
tears it down–
then why
should we be
surprised
that
her sex
makes
the sounds?
(Hurry.)
Her muscles
t.
wi.
_tch–
they are not
used
to this.
She must
hurry
to be first
or she’ll
not see that
pink sky
at all.
“I’m afraid
of what will
happen
if I let go
and
let it
loose,”
she
says.
I know.
You may
at last
be
free;
you may
at last
come first,
and
there’s nothing ladylike
about
that.